[Part of Vance can't help but realize how fucking cliche the situation is. Him, sitting there on his knees in the snow, and yet he's not the least bit bothered by the cold. No, his mind going a million miles a fucking minute at all the shitty ways this could end has his entire body feeling too numb to care about his surroundings. He's only vaguely aware when Shades finally comes over, and no matter how calm, the tone of voice makes him flinch.
All because Vance can't take a fucking joke. Everything, every single moment he's enjoyed over the past few years, a complete fucking waste just because he couldn't just roll with a stupid joke and wait for the punch line. Because he let his insecurities get the best of him, made him react in anger so he wouldn't cry.
Some fucking good that did, because as he tries to open his mouth, tries to apologize, he closes it and finds his teeth clenching. Yeah. It was only a matter of time before the tears started, god dammit. He's so fucking pathetic. Like hell he's going to look up when he can't even keep his shit together enough to stop himself from crying.
He never fucking thought he'd be missing Gamzee, but right about now, having a moirail, even a shitty one, to hide on, would be great.]
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All because Vance can't take a fucking joke. Everything, every single moment he's enjoyed over the past few years, a complete fucking waste just because he couldn't just roll with a stupid joke and wait for the punch line. Because he let his insecurities get the best of him, made him react in anger so he wouldn't cry.
Some fucking good that did, because as he tries to open his mouth, tries to apologize, he closes it and finds his teeth clenching. Yeah. It was only a matter of time before the tears started, god dammit. He's so fucking pathetic. Like hell he's going to look up when he can't even keep his shit together enough to stop himself from crying.
He never fucking thought he'd be missing Gamzee, but right about now, having a moirail, even a shitty one, to hide on, would be great.]