[The way he flinches at the hand makes him hate himself a little more, feeling so fucking stupid for this whole thing, for ruining everything. A moment passes and he doesn't move, is still too afraid and still trying to stop those god damn tears from falling when he knows it just makes him look pathetic. But.. Fuck. He can't hold out, can't curl in on himself like he wants to.
So he takes the chance to push himself forward, curling his hands in the other's shirt, too afraid to wrap his arms around him, and just hides against his chest for a minute. Vance doesn't know if the shaking is from the cold finally getting to him, or if it's due to the annoying ass tears that are barely subsiding. At least it didn't have him sobbing, Shades had made a move fast enough to prevent that, but. Fuck. He hates being so weak, so fucking worthless like this.
He wants to apologize, to find some way to make it up to him for making him bleed, but there's a stubborn side that refuses because... Shit. He doesn't want to think he deserves this, that it's what he gets for being a stupid asshole. But he does, and he hates it, hates himself, all the more for it. In the end, Vance doesn't say a word as he curls himself tighter against Shades' chest.]
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So he takes the chance to push himself forward, curling his hands in the other's shirt, too afraid to wrap his arms around him, and just hides against his chest for a minute. Vance doesn't know if the shaking is from the cold finally getting to him, or if it's due to the annoying ass tears that are barely subsiding. At least it didn't have him sobbing, Shades had made a move fast enough to prevent that, but. Fuck. He hates being so weak, so fucking worthless like this.
He wants to apologize, to find some way to make it up to him for making him bleed, but there's a stubborn side that refuses because... Shit. He doesn't want to think he deserves this, that it's what he gets for being a stupid asshole. But he does, and he hates it, hates himself, all the more for it. In the end, Vance doesn't say a word as he curls himself tighter against Shades' chest.]