[[Eternity is right. And it feels like it drags on for several of them while he wallows in self-loathing and the inability to filter himself for anything. He does notice the movement, but he assumes it has nothing to do with his idiot bullshit he spews every moment of every day. He's pretty sure what he said was ill timed and fucked up. Why bring up something like that at a time like this? Who the fuck knows he just had to be on autopilot. He feels the movement more than sees it, if Vance isn't going to look up at him he isn't going to-- oh wait there we go. Even then it's hard to look him in the eyes and equally as difficult not to. His hand comes up again and presses to those cheeks to get what he couldn't get blindly. Even that amused noise he's not sure is actually amused and... he's just as scared.
Cape or not to comfort and hide them it didn't hide any of their mutual fears, but the moment that Vance says that Shades could do 'better'. What kind of 'better' is he talking about here? He's listening to the rest of it but his features are definitely twisted in to confusion, almost Dirk-the-first-time with less comedic property confusion. The words themselves are perfect, but the sentiment... the sentiment was born on the back of something Shades didn't like to hear.]]
...Vance I don't know where you think I could do better- and don't take that the wrong way either. Any wrong way, I don't care what wrong way. Who the fuck else would put up with my bullshit the way you do? Join in it and make it fun the way you do? But you're right. I'd have deserved you flyin' off like a big candy fairy in the night. Don't be scared. There's nothin' gonna take me from you or you from me. Mainly you from me because I'll have to fight to the death for your honor. Ain't no one in this world better for me than you. I uh.
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And it feels like it drags on for several of them while he wallows in self-loathing and the inability to filter himself for anything. He does notice the movement, but he assumes it has nothing to do with his idiot bullshit he spews every moment of every day. He's pretty sure what he said was ill timed and fucked up. Why bring up something like that at a time like this? Who the fuck knows he just had to be on autopilot. He feels the movement more than sees it, if Vance isn't going to look up at him he isn't going to-- oh wait there we go. Even then it's hard to look him in the eyes and equally as difficult not to. His hand comes up again and presses to those cheeks to get what he couldn't get blindly. Even that amused noise he's not sure is actually amused and... he's just as scared.
Cape or not to comfort and hide them it didn't hide any of their mutual fears, but the moment that Vance says that Shades could do 'better'. What kind of 'better' is he talking about here? He's listening to the rest of it but his features are definitely twisted in to confusion, almost Dirk-the-first-time with less comedic property confusion. The words themselves are perfect, but the sentiment... the sentiment was born on the back of something Shades didn't like to hear.]]
...Vance I don't know where you think I could do better- and don't take that the wrong way either. Any wrong way, I don't care what wrong way. Who the fuck else would put up with my bullshit the way you do? Join in it and make it fun the way you do? But you're right. I'd have deserved you flyin' off like a big candy fairy in the night. Don't be scared. There's nothin' gonna take me from you or you from me. Mainly you from me because I'll have to fight to the death for your honor. Ain't no one in this world better for me than you. I uh.
You know.
[[He clears his throat.]]
I love you.